Help!!! I'm in love with a fictional character( Pam Beesley).?

For years now i've been a huge admirer of the NBC hit tv show "The Office". I started watching while on my first deployment to the middle east and I still proclaim it as my favorite TV show to watch. I have always saw myself in Jim. I mean the way I act, the lax attitude towards life and living, the shyness in saying certain things and even the fears that we both have are mirror images of each other. Heck i've even had the same hair type as him even before I started watching the show. Granted military hair doesn't leave you with much but I promise you my hair is at maximum length for military standards and is always messed up. And naturally with living vicariously through Jim I have honestly fallen in love with Pam. I just don't get it. I search all my life to find my dream girl and I turn on the TV and there she is. It's not Jenna Fischer that i'm drawn to (even though I will say without the same attitude she still sparks my interest). It's Pam! The way she walks, the sound of her sweet soft voice. The words that she speaks seem to hug your body making you feel so warm and comfortable, resonating in your head for hours on end to the point where you can't work for a single second without thinking of her. I swear every time that show starts and I see her in her little cardigans I can feel my heart pounding harder and harder. Her skin seems just the right tone of paleness and her beautiful seemingly soft brunette hair (with a little bit of strawberry mixed in there) just floating off her shoulders. I just don't get it. I searched continents to discover the right girl only to see her on TV as a fictional character that I can never have nor be with. It's sounds so stupid and childish but I honestly feel heartbroken. This is just rediculous. I'm rediculous.